When I was pretty ill and could do almost nothing, I could sometimes manage to do bits of crosswords with someone reading the clues out and filling it in. I was bought a puzzle selection magazine and gradually got myself back into being able to read without immense dizziness and nausea. I’d look at a puzzle for a few seconds, fill in maybe just one or two clues, then put it down and rest. Through doing this slowly and repeatedly, eventually I got well enough to return to reading maths and physics course materials. An extremely slow process, but the only way to do it. You can’t go over it, you can’t go under it, you can’t go round it, you have to go through it.
Now I subscribe to one of these magazines, because it reminds me that everything is achieved in small steps, that living is like a continuous function and you often can’t just jump from where you are to where you want to be. You have to take baby steps. Infinitely many baby steps.
And I also get it because some of the clues are brilliant:
Sea army (4)
Land navy (4)
List of meals (4)
Yellow pudding sauce (7)
Convent woman (3)
Ruby —, hit for the Rolling Stones (7)
What completes the title of the Rolling Stones hit — Tuesday? (4)




